Hello Toddlerhood! (Reflections)
June 1st. My baby turned one. I have a one year old! Toddlerhood is approaching me fast! Don’t worry, I know it’s boring to read about someone else’s kid, so I will try to be as general as possible here. But man, my little Ezra is such a grown up baby now. Who knew in this time I would be able to be a part of motherhood.
This day was hilarious. Everyone always asks, “Is that your house in the background?” I wish. hahaha. Thank you Annie for choosing this park with a gorgeous house and giving my life a fancy illusion. This was the week before his birthday and we went to French Park to have a mother/son photoshoot, and then a cake smash photoshoot. First time mom here, and Pinterest told me it was a great idea. Wrong. We went early, because sunrise lighting is great for pictures, and that’s usually when Ezra has the most energy. The mother/son part went great. By the time that was over, he was starting to get a little tired. By the time the cake session was set up, Bubble was over it and wanted a nap. Sensory overload.
We did of course, get some beautiful shots.
We did a lot of birthday things before his actual birthday because the day after his birthday, we were taking off for Florida for a week (this will be a future post). Here are some highlights.
Waking up the presents and balloons, banners and excitement. Kisses and cuddles. We spent the morning letting him open gifts, play with the balloons and wrapping paper, and made a biscuits and gravy for breakfast. Nomnomnom.
We spent the morning together, letting him play with his new toys and being showered with “happy birthdays”! After a couple hours, we all got dressed, slapped on some sunscreen and headed out to a park to walk around and get some fresh air. On the way, we ran into a little carnival and paid for some non refundable tickets before realizing all the rides had height requirements that Ezra obviously didn’t meet. Oh well. We still got funnel cake, so that’s a win in my book. Of course, we stopped by Grandpa’s so he could get some more love, ice cream and gifts!
Winding down the night, we obviously had cake for dinner (hoping I didn’t make him terrified of cake from the photoshoot), watched a new movie from Grandpa and ending the day with cuddles letting me know he is still and will always be my baby..
P.S. I had written a post a couple months ago about “becoming a single mother”. While I will cover more detail in a future post, I briefly wanted to mention that while we are not together, he remains in my sons life as a father/male figure and while co-parenting is a struggle I am working on, I am grateful to have someone in his life that loves him so much. Co-parenting is a hard journey, but one I am willing to go through for my son to have that relationship.
Back to this post, besides celebrating my sons birthday, I am celebrating making it through motherhood for a year! As we should! We get through year after year raising these tiny little people and are doing the best we can. We always feel like we’re not doing enough and fret the little things. This is why I am so happy I take so many videos and pictures because when I go back and look at them, I realize how my perspective differs from my sons. I see that he is happy, and hear it from everyone who meets him. He is loved, fed, clothed, and taken care of. Little stuff doesn’t matter. I realize that I am a great mom despite being tired, despite not taking him to the park every day, despite falling asleep with him a lot of nights and not always having the house clean. My son wakes up and smiles and laughs with me every morning, and that’s all I need as reassurance. I have learned so much in raising this little boy from a newborn to the pre toddler he is now. I am happy, and I am loved in a way I never thought I could feel.
Celebrate yourselves too, mamas. Sure, birthdays are there day, but at the end of the day, pour a glass of wine and give yourselves a pat on the back for all the hard work you put in and how amazing of a mother you are in the bigger picture of things.
Cheers to the next year to come, and all the memories we will make!
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